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The bar was surrounded by blue, dark blue fluorescent according to a high stool in the silver-white, reflecting a more deep-Charm, inclusive of the blue. The United States and dressed in a dark small embroidery jeans, even the shades are blue, crossing slender legs sitting in a blue, are busy playing with the phone, but also makes it especially harmony. Asked her a drink, the United States did not turn a small menu, down to the bottle random.such as table, put away small Mei-Cai mobile, skilled and competent in the bottle will be the palm of your hand, another hand holding a knock on the table, went down bottle of lemon,to the emergence of many bubbles.Toot cushions drank a big mouth, small U.S. This her story began to chat.
    
“Accidental” encounter
I read in the university is the beauty profession, we class girls although not all pretty, but at least know how to dress themselves are. Mom and Dad had me “get” into such a private school, is intended to let me read the English language, but I failed impartial — happy to re-enter private universities, is nothing more than to mix a diploma, it might as well pick their own favorite.
I live in a dormitory, the Department of Fashion Design class neighborhood girl. We will also make-up also understand clothing, born partner, two years down, more college students than pretty much mature. The few of us girls to take to the streets, never Repeated customers low.
Before graduating from university, we have two months to do a design. Class people do not even. So, I finally stand up dorm room that several “popular” girls, out “relax.” In fact, as early as sophomore year, we are often outside the bedroom waiting car, and all high-end but also vary.
Since then, almost every day I followed them everywhere. Of course, every time out is carefully planned, the proportion of men and women are always “inadvertently” to happen to be 1:1. I do not dislike this gathering, but I can not really integrate into one.

May finally have the time, planning has been “unexpected” results. In the bar, table full of people sitting next to me that a man is particularly attentive to any boast how he and I pretty, there is temperament, I still can not afford the slightest interest to sit down — from that moment on, I vision can not be left sitting on the opposite side I was the man.     “Love at first sight”

Bar stool to faint semi-circle, pointing to a small corner of the United States, “on where he day, drink two glasses of brandy in one breath.”
He is Lin, the day his 40-year-old birthday. His wife in the United States a business trip, so he invited a few friends busy busy. Soon, I learned that he has all the circumstances: Lin do petroleum products export trade, the cause of success, a lot of money income. I certainly not attract such, but he was some kind of a unique temperament. I think he told me is “love at first sight,” because when the first glass of wine when they drink, We look relatively even endemic feeling. The night we tacitly put aside all people, walked into a hotel recently.
Night, Lin arms around my pale, he has been a matter of fact, as I do not like so many young girls, because we simply can not understand the idea of Prada Wallets  — but this time, he changed his mind..
Although the age difference between the full 17-year-old, but will not affect the exchange between us. Lin has a talented wife, even his wife companies are single-handedly created, so to live in his wife’s “shadow”, the species on the lam is suffocating pressure. And I think is very simple — since I fell in love with this man, then give him the most pure happiness, that I the only goal.
Lin bluntly told me that although his family is not happy, but to his son, he would not divorce.
“We love each other very much in good faith, although the different causes of love!”
    
“Crazy” games
Both of us do not want to play with the feelings of anyone, I am sincerely in which he sincerely willing to share the burden, but never thought to destroy his family.
Lin is a family of men, during weekends, holidays such times, he is bound to “stealth” to accompany his wife’s languishing — Every time when my heart is always empty-yo’s.
I am very difficult to get together with Lin — too few opportunities to meet the evening, even during the day and time to lunch or a cup of coffee, but also rushed the sly. Most of the time, I can only see a movie alone. The happiest day of his trip will be a few, and from our love, he almost every time I travel to accompany him to the idea. In order to accompany him, I have taken leave time and time again — consecutive 3 job because of frequent absenteeism during the probation period has been fired.
My family from a young age is superior, though never more than a month of continuous work, but I was not short of money. Lin fortress money every time to me, always I strongly refuse, on the contrary, when I do not for him to buy some expensive gift — never spent his money, which I am most proud of.
Christmas Eve in 2000, is in the first four companies to report the first day — fired because of a row, becoming increasingly difficult to find a job, the new company or a friend took nine cattle Erhu effort before I have to “force” into account. Early in the morning may be the day, as I came to the company’s on the road, Lin suddenly to telephone said he was a business trip to Canton, and left at noon. I thought how can they have to work less than 10 points from the company secretly slipped out a side door, stopped a taxi arrived at the Civil Aviation outlets, home luggage, passing rush to buy Christmas presents for him.
When I finally on the plane 35 minutes before take-off rushed to the airport, when he was seen in the terminal I profusely haired, Lin almost shocked, his arms … I have a will …
Gradually, her friends seem to have accepted us. I have friends here, he always appeared to her boyfriend’s identity; and in his friends, I have never in his capacity as the “tacit understanding”, which is an open secret.
With me since he seems much younger. 40-year-old man, sometimes like a child-like, hiding behind pillars store scared I jump, or mischief to my mobile phone short message to delete all screaming — friends can not read, only I know, he would like the need to protect children.
Mom and Dad have always wanted me to go to France after graduating from university read the book two years in France, relatives and even helped me to apply for the school. However, in order to him, I has delayed significantly. We have been very good to fantasy: We have 3 years together, perhaps that time have had the passion, At that time, I go France, we see once a month, or he came to Europe, or we went to the middle of a city to meet. Even one day I got married, you can maintain such a relationship. I thought, it can be a lifetime. 
    
In the future
All this because of my pregnancy came to a standstill. Ate more than a year of contraceptives, I think it is taking some shape, past a pair of jeans can not even wear. Last summer the former, in order to Prada Bags , deliberately stopped for a month contraceptives. Will not be so clever, I secretly pray.
I finally wearing t-shirts and had a hot summer, may end in the summer, I suddenly found itself   a — in fact the past two years, such an outcome as early as in my heart, “Simulation “countless times, it is” decisively “to make a decision: not to have children.
That night, I deliberately trying to calm him: “I am pregnant, but you may rest assured that I will solve this thing!” Said naturalization that night, I have no sleep.
Short Message sent, I always imagine his way — he must be very worried, very restless. Could be his wife on the side, he could not give me a call,sure. Can not think of that when we meet at noon the next day, Lin has made no mention of pregnancy, showing a surprisingly calm and happy, it seems a matter of course by me “responsible” — my heart about the imbalance!
heart of a gas. At noon that day is the first time with him about “divorce,” says Lin solemnly replied: “She knew the day this matter, I finished.” Love the past two years, this is the first time I mentioned that he’s selfish . I never dared to give him pressure, which has become a matter of course to accommodate. I struggled with the contradictions, the side refused to remove their children, thus also the self-mutilation to. Slimming products brochure that “pregnant women to disable” and I have in front of him for many to swallow — two others eat, I eat four to redouble.
I know that in order to Lin temper, if I insisted on having children, he would accept. I’m still young, after all, you. On such a delay for almost two months, in September last year, I had walked into the hospital. On that day, I am in the hospital from 9:00 pm has been lay. After surgery, I fell lifeless lying wards, he has separated from the door, I could hear his cell phone ring incessantly. Then that he deliberately suppressed the voices of: “know that’ll be right back!” The first time I shed tears kept down.
Day night, I fell to the to bed, was suddenly ringing short message, the eyes look, was 1:00. Short message he sent in, but it is not any comfort to me: “I would like to send her son to go tomorrow to participate in piano interview, please give me a piano teacher contact telephone.”
He is a child’s piano teacher I have good contacts to help him, because he busy with work, has dragged on for nearly six months. May at this moment, as I have just lost a child’s day, he suddenly brought his children. The day I am extremely weak, is in need of rest time.
For a time, I suddenly thought of death, and even easy to find a repair razor eyebrows. Fortunately, I do not vulnerable, in order to dispel the idea of their own, I am struggling to get up, go to the parents room, and told them everything. That evening,parents, my mother forced me to rest served a sleeping pills, and then she told my father Shou rotation two days and nights, for fear that I committed suicide.
“Collective bargaining”  
    The next day, Mom and Dad to Lin called home to “negotiate”, my mother had already calm down, but asked him: “We are a small United States are still very small, but you should be thoughtful of you. You said you loved her, how could not cherish her body? “to see him an innocent expression, but I finally gas and roared:” how can you dare not speak, I have been bleeding for you, I order you! “
Lin quickly interrupted my words, he suggested I give “compensation”, but I do not insist on his penny. To “negotiate” the outcome is not only to Prada, Lin got up to go home, I propose to send to send him the last time, her parents agreed.
We have just, not waiting for me by the bright lights aisle, Lin suddenly some brutally pressure in the corner of my lips recklessly Ying-up. My hands were tightly to withhold his face turn but can not escape his lips — I will soon be a compromise, and habitually nibble his tongue. Just then, his cell phone rang suddenly.
Zhonglin confusion by bright lights aisle, from the bag touch phone, the sudden light makes me feel extremely humiliated. I am hard to pinch him, he has rapidly turned, stuck to his mouth to say: “I know that has a home on the road.”
On that day, I can not help it, grabbed a phone, quickly in accordance with the number just playing the past, the red of his wife shouting: “Do you not want to go home her husband, why must he go back.” Lin fully stand in amazement and even did not stop me, just a dead motionless staring at me the hands of the telephone. Telephone obviously a dumb, silent for a long time, then shaking answered: “You who, wrong, right?” I certainly do not buy it, simply continue to this no knowledge of the Woman attacked.
Then the situation became very embarrassed the next day into our 5 personal “collective bargaining.” Wife than I imagine she is much heavier, and she did not show the shrew angrily phase. Of course, a runny nose is not a cry of “Xianglinsao.” She only looked in good faith, said: “Look at the husband and wife for so many years we were on, as long as you are willing to go back to my side and my son, I do not care about anything.” Finished, she coldly forest arm, said Then his son to go to kindergarten.
At this time, his son is her trump card, unfortunately, I have nothing. Seeing them, my parents are not able to say a word, I know, it called them even more than embarrassing. His mobile phone was confiscated, and I have also been a 24-hour surveillance - a section of the maintenance of a full three-year “love” is so out of control to an end.
I suddenly felt very sorry and I love men, I did say to him over a lifetime … …

Chen Mo Chen Mo? The one who I punched the eyes of boys Green? A closer look at, really shape remains the same, but for many years, and many also grow a lot of strapping, all those years is no longer a breath small boys, I yelled out, homeopathy punched his shoulder in Thredbo , “Chen morning, it is really you, ah!”
Chen Mo and dedicated dog, and “small bones, so many years not seen, or ah love beating.”
is preparing to defend a few, just the elevator to the, I out of elevators, at twilight Chen cried, “I am a 23 floor, b Block, free chat ah another day.”
Who knows Chen also followed the morning I took the lift, but also the expression literally said to me, “Well, ah Coincidentally, I just rented a house next door to you, we should not sit around?”
Chen Mo and Pharmacophore 
   For a few days, are mixed together and Chen morning to talk about the young old to talk about so many years of experience, suddenly found that, in fact, Chen told the morning chat can also did well happy, happy even forgot Pharmacophore.
Chen morning to take me to play a roller coaster, and I screamed with excitement in the car, but could not help but you need something down Cross, Chen morning unexpectedly did not arm me, just leaned on railings , the deeply looked at me.
looked at him, and finally unable to restrain,his arms and burst into tears, Chen evening quietly me, let me enjoy the vent forward. Finally, he asked faint, “a small bone, you sorry for yourself, or for … … Pharmacophore.”
I am surprised, suddenly carried, are undoubtedly face eyeful.
Chen twilight holding fingers cover my mouth, “small bones, do not ask anything, I’ll show you a place.”
Familiar with the sites, as familiar with lighting, Moonlight Bar, I am puzzled to look Chen evening, Mr evening look serious, I have to have to ask, then swallow it down.
Bar, the woman is dancing on stage, and dressed in purple skirt, Tim had a few mysterious color, lighting according to earlier, we can see her long fingernails, with the finger movements, different colors of light from the means Tsim filtration very charm is in the air.
Chen evening pulling me, “the small bones, you look carefully, she is not and some of you look like?”
Squint of the eyes look fine the past, the woman eyes Damei long, the chin is pointed, and shiver with cold indifference pure expression, and I was a bit like.
But it say? I am still full of handmade jewelry. Chen evening dragged me, turned a bar, it is hidden in a corner, a man sitting there drinking, before the ashtray full of cigarette butts in, Chen held the morning before I went that person, Pharmacophore! I cried. 
    Wordless Moonlight
Do not know how that day is to go home and do not know Pharmacophore and Chen evening on what I have said, perhaps nothing. Hiding in the home who refused to see, pulling a telephone line, close the phone, but Chen the morning to beat the door too loudly ring, I am afraid that he would not open the door to break into and tearing down the years, sighed, opening the door Chen morning like a gust of wind rushed over, “a small bone, how do you take pity on their own so do not know!”
I do not speak, nail biting down to see those ten fingers bite my bald bald and nameless to remember that bar women Xiu hand fingers, fingernails.
Chen morning I laugh, “You will it?”
Chen evening pulling my hand, “small bone, your palm prints too messy, doomed feelings.”
“That you help me take a look at these lines, what is your signs? What are traces of Pharmacophore?”
“Small bones, Pharmacophore not love you, you do not feel it?”
I heavy, said a guilty conscience, “but he said that love me.”
“I love you also said that many years ago said, also said that after many years.”
“Chen morning, how do you know the Pharmacophore?”
“If you love a person, they will want to know all her, you are not happy for him, I do not know how?”
I am speechless, for a long while, I sigh said, “Chen morning, give me time to calm under the good?”
“Small bone, I will give you enough time to think about what you need most.”
Chen evening gently to leave a quiet room. I do not know how long after, the door bell rang, got up and opened the door, the door is Pharmacophore, looking dejected.
“Small bones, listen to me a story, many years ago, a boy and a girl secretly good at, then they are still in high school, they discuss it with the same test university, after graduating from costume jewelry, such as marriage . duo successful, was admitted to a university, in schools, a performance at the White Snake my girls, my boys, Xu Xian, she called him Messire, he called her Lady, they all thought that, Happiness is like at your fingertips, but a university graduate in the previous year, the girl back home when the accident had a serious illness, due to her home in a very remote villages, medical conditions are very poor, persistent high fever coupled with inappropriate medication, her voice completely, and since then, she could no longer say that the language sounds, singing wonderful songs, which makes her very low self-esteem, quickly organized a Trustee of the withdrawal procedures, hid with relatives refused to see anyone. The boy finally know the truth, the pain very much,Love and reality, like a knife in front of Wang, which side are constantly write can not be cut, the boy can not choose to give up, but also do not have the courage to accept that he did not dare to look for the girl, but she has to write about a miss and not until graduating from college, but always a letter from the girl did not return. After graduation, the boy has finally decided to choose to forget, has chosen a strange city to start life, it is so over five years, until the encounter in the West Lake similar to that with her girls. “
Pharmacophore down is also prepared to say, I interrupted him, “What’s the name of her?”
“Month. Lin Yue-month”
“Do you still love her.”
Pharmacophore looked at me, silent for a long time, gently nodded his head, my heart the Levees Broke, all the courage have begun to defeat. I love the original is only a fleeting time in the drama, at the beginning of time, always thought that the protagonist of his own, in the dark after prompting strike, it was found out that he originally went to the wrong field, his play has not already is wrong.
   
Palm warm
Have always believed that love is a life of fashion jewelry, whether or not to wait until the bear fruit, but the process is waiting for the warmth and comfort.
In a sunny afternoon, went to the Moonlight Bar, Lin Yue sitting on, to see me, and a friendly smile, I asked her, you know me? She nodded gently.
She handed me a card with attractive fonts above read, “through today, the sun is still very good, I know I have a lot of cul-de-sac, there are a lot of post, they certainly will have the top of the blue sky, There are white clouds, and I know that eventually there will be a party to the sky is open for me. “
“Are you going to do in future?” I asked.
She took a piece of paper, the banners read, “the money to open a flower shop.”
“The boss will let Pharmacophore it?”
“Might be.”
I raised his glass, gently shook her, “I wish you success.”
Raising her mouth, YY head, some naughty, very lovely way.
Obvious indecision, there is always bright refused to fade, illuminate each other, smiling face. Bar out of the moonlight, sunlight down habitually block the amount of hands before the light, the sun filtering minor palm, warm, really. Chen saw the morning across the street stand, calmly, shallow smile.